Happy New Year

Happy New Year!! I hope 2005 is better than ever!

Mary wanted me to write down at least three new year’s resolutions so here we go! Oh you can add yours in the comments!
 
1. Get Healthy! I need to drink more water, consume less commercially prepared foods, and moderate proportions
 
2. Get Back in Touch with my Spiritual Self! I need to focus a time every day to meditate and give thanks to the Goddess
 
3. Realise I am NOT a Bad Person! I need to let people compliment me instead of down playing it, I need to let myself feel proud with a customer talked to me for over 30 minutes today saying what a fantastic personality I have lol, I need to not take to heart all the verbal abuse and emotional abuse that is in my life. That it’s ok for me to be alone.
 
4. Make my bedroom my peaceful relaxing area, even though the computer and tv have to be in here, I need to make it calming.

So? C’mon! What are at least three resolutions!

Fruit and Vegetables

What is (or are) your favorite fruit and vegetable and why?

Hurt

It’s starting to really hit me how Matt and I are over.

I am so freaked and panicked because of how my father treats me in front of my son. Example: last night my father was cussing about finding a lid, I asked him to not swear in front of my son and that I would find his lid, he then raised his hand and told me he was going to hit me if I didn’t move. Daniel went hysterical, I called my sister and just sobbed and sobbed.

I am trying so hard right now and I have no one. No family. No friends. I am so utterly alone. Nothing good is happening. I am pathetic. I shouldn’t even exisit. Everyone ends up hating me sooner or later. I do no good for anyone.

Yarn… Pictures… Wow

Oh yes, a lot of pictures… beware!
   

Yay! Tulips!!
 

Yarn! From my lovely Pippi Knee Socks! She even included magnets and a small sample of another colorway! I about fainted!
 

Cake

What kind of cake should I make for Daniel’s 3^rd birthday tomorrow?

Small Food Changes

I have switched to skim milk and I no longer buy soda-pop. I have drank just about three 16.9oz bottles of water so far today. It actually tasted good! Yay Aquafina! Tonight I am going to make pasta with a pesto sauce, chicken breasts, bell pepper, onion, and tomato.

Happy Birthday!!

Today is my son’s third birthday!!

So far I have been up early and made him a huge breakfast. Scrambled eggs with cheese, bell pepper, onion, and cubed potatoes, a piece of whole wheat toast with strawberry preserves, some actual strawberries, and juice.

Pain

I broke my finger… again.

Damn bedskirt! You shall rot in the boiling depths of evil!

It hurts so bad right now.

Sprain

I think my finger is just sprained, it’s still bruised up but does not hurt as much.

Still… damn bedskirt!!

Picture Update

Since I was exhausted Sunday, yesterday, and had a migraine at work today *love my boss so much! Not only did she feed me her homemade swedish meatballs for lunch but nursed me through my agonizing migraine at work!* so here are just a bunch of pictures of my son’s 3^rd birthday cake, yarn (of course all yarn is from my lovely Pippi KneeSocks, snow, and all of that stuff!