Archive for September, 2006

09-03

2006

Life is Short

I added a bit on the sidebar my weight loss so far, just… because. I still have a ton to lose but it’s a good start! For dinner I made Rotini w/shredded chicken, grape tomatoes, fresh basil, and shredded mozzarella.

Not only did I do my normal routine of going to the farmer’s market today (baby indian corn and first apples!), but I also stopped at the library to pick up a book, Dean Kootz — The Husband, that my sister had on hold and is letting me read first, but I also cleaned the kitchen, cleaned the fridge and reorganized the fridge! I also washed/spun/stored all my fresh herbs, spinach, and lettuce. Good stuff!

Last night (seems to be falling into a nice routine!) my sister, the wee one, and myself had dinner at Sweet Tomatoes where I found a basil vingerette that wasn’t healthy but fabulous tasting so I plan on replicating it soon. Also (even though Nikki told me) squash is tasty on salads! It was very busy, I never knew that resturant could get so packed. I got fabulous inspiration though from their Asian Ginger Broth. I figure I could make a ginger/lemongrass broth, toss in shredded chicken, scallions, lime juice, whatever else sounds good at the time… maybe some noodles too… just pondering.

I am talking about food a whole lot aren’t I. I blame Michael Smith and how he looks for inspiration in cooking. It’s really made me open up to new flavors!

Well off to play in iTunes for more expanded sleepy and car playlists!

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09-10

2006

Apple of my Eye

This weekend has been busy. I not only went to various farms, farmer’s markets, farm stands, but we also picked apples at an apple orchard! Fun times! Today we went to our regular farmer’s market, grocery stores, library, did some laundry, good times.

As for my weight loss, only 1 lb gone this week. Most likely because I was a bit physically more active but didn’t even eat NEARLY enough food at all this week but a loss is a loss!

Am I the only one so utterly thrilled The Rock has a new movie coming out?

I am trying to figure out how to do SOMETHING for the upcoming Autumn Equinox, I just don’t know WHAT. Any suggestions?

I updated Imagine with a ton of photos and there’s a ton more coming forth as well!

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09-12

2006

Good Enough

So tonight I went with my sister to the recplex and walked a billion laps and then took some of the ‘ced (excedrin migraine) and she threatened… I mean… joyously bounced and jogged with her lithe figure how we will do this hellish bonding again tomorrow.

Yay.

I mean I don’t mind mentally working out, it’s just my body is all BITCH PLEASE and chicken necks at me and well… I am not one for confrontations. It’s much easier to control my food through Weight Watchers heh.

I cleaned under my bed yesterday and found two overdue library books, of course they belong to the library like 15 miles away so I have to suck it up and return them this week. Speaking of books I am totally into Kim Harrison books right now! Adore!

Ok wee tiny entry, time to prance to bed, go visit Imagine and Vibrant.

ETA Sept 13^th 2006

I don’t have much for another entry. I went back to the rec plex and not only did a mile on the track but did about 3/4ths of another mile on the treadmill!

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09-14

2006

Never Gonna Say I’m Sorry

So another night at the gym. Good times, it’s turning into a routine with my sister and already after only three days I can see a difference in my fitness level.

Day 1 — Have to stop after every single lap on the track. Face beet red.

Day 2 — Have to stop only after half a mile. Face decently red.

Day 3 — I don’t have to stop at all. Face just a bit pink on the cheeks.

I’ve been listening to the Jillian Michaels podcast and for me it’s even more motivating than music and makes the time fly by!

I am probably going to take this Saturday off of work to go to the Chicago’s farmers market and meet my sister’s fiance’s mother and step father (that’s a mouthful) and of course do my regular farm hopping and such.

I really need a crockpot (slow cooker).

I am rambly.

I haven’t been online much at home lately so I am falling behind on everything online.

I am slowly starting to freak out on how to afford Daniel’s autumn and winter wardrobe and still do Christmas and his birthday. Especially considering the sperm donor can’t summon enough caring to even send clothing, so right now I am looking at Old Navy’s clearance online see if they have anything cute.

I guess I should try and go to sleep.

ETA

This is freaking me out.

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09-17

2006

Let Go

Yesterday was a slow day. My sister and I went to the city for the farmers market, not as good as it was last year and I forgot my camera so that sucked. Oh so very much.

Later this morning we are going to the regular local farmers market, good times.

I am talking to my Robyn right now about people that present themselves falsely.

I shouldn’t type at almost 5am.

In just a few days it will be the Autumn Equinox and what would have been my beloved Grandmother’s 78^th birthday. I miss her more than I can handle sometimes.

My birthday is pretty much a month away at this point. I am trying super hard to not get depressed about it. It’s difficult though because for the past almost 8 years I’ve not had a good birthday. I guess that’s what being in an abusive relationship does for your birthday expectations.

I am cranky.

I need a hug.

I’m going to bed.

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09-18

2006

Air Moves Us

Well apparently my little mood swing is because I started my moon cycle, yeah good times.

I did very little this weekend. I ended up napping on Saturday so I didn’t really accomplish… well… anything that I had planned on. I have to do laundry today. I was actually going to get up an hour earlier this morning but I was still so very tired… still am really. I also need to clean the bathroom, bedroom, and kitchen. Why yes my head is starting to hurt a bit already!

I’ve been downloading a ton of vodcasts lately, I will have to add them to my links page. I remember my very brief and non-noticable podcasting days. Anyway, speaking of links, does anyone want to link exchange?

Actually I am starting my Autumny reflection period in my life. I was reading my archives for the past what… five years at OSN and it’s just… crazy to me, how much I’ve gone through in a short period of time. I still feel like I’m 17 and making stupid decisions with my life instead of being a month away from turning 25 years old and in a dead end living situation. Speaking of, my sister’s fiance’s mother (say that three times fast!) told me to look at Ann Arbor, Michigan, for a place to live since she really wants my sister and fiance to move up there.

I have to figure out lunch. Do I really want Subway… again? It’s hard to find healthy fast food that isn’t a salad (as much as I love salad, I don’t like the bland plain salads offered) but I am getting tired of Subway. The problem is that the microwave still hasn’t been replaced so I can’t reheat leftovers and wraps, salad, etc from home aren’t helping much since I want warm foods. Ugh!

Ok well I am going to prance and find some food!

Addition

I had Subway heh.

So now that I feel better from eating lunch, I’ve been pondering my spirituality or lack thereof really. I’ve really slacked off in the past 2 years and that simply isn’t good! I really want a new tarot deck… don’t have the money though. I also need to start doing yoga again, which again, stopped doing about 2 years ago… actually I stopped a lot of stuff when I started working here… odd. Anyway even though I am much heavier, some yoga poses really helped my back (I was in a car accident at 16 and my back hurts occasionally from it) and relaxed me. I am also trying to wake up an hour earlier in the morning to be able to achieve that. The Autumn Equinox is coming up and I really want to try and do SOMETHING…. ANYTHING for it. Any suggestions for me and for Daniel?

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09-20

2006

Keep Breathing

I am so beyond cold right now. I had turned on the heat in here yesterday but my boss had turned it off and I haven’t gotten the jackets from my sister yet.

I am really cold. Heather knows this because I keep telling her ohhh every 5 seconds.

I am excited because tonight are the season premieres of The Biggest Loser and America’s Next Top Model.

I am haha doing a lot of “I am” statements.

I totally have issues today. See… it’s the cold.

Any suggestions for a warm dinner for tonight involving chicken breasts that isn’t chicken soup?

Mabon, or the Autumn Equinox is this upcoming Saturday, I am leaning towards apple/pumpkin picking, baking bread, some sort of beef stew with roasted veggies… not sure what I could do to make it more… spiritual for Daniel if that’s possible at his age?

Ugh I really am cold! I need someone to think warm naughty thoughts because umm COLD!

More

I updated my myspace and posted a bit on vibrant. Right now I am looking at my bank account to see if I have any extra money to drive anywhere today because although it’s cold, it is so pretty right now that I want to take Danny out and take some photos.

Thinking about the chicken ordeal, perhaps squash? I have some butternut and acorn squash I could roast… oh how I wish I had an immersion blender for creamy soup! Or a griddle (my skillet SUCKS for pancakes) for pumpkin pancakes!

Also, where is everyone? I never see anyone online anymore or updating blogs or uhh anything. I shall now quote some Justin Timberlake lyrics, is anybody out there?

Oh and before I forget, I purged the members that haven’t been logged in since July or before (or never logged in at all), if you were one of those members, feel free to register again!

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09-21

2006

Sweet Sacrifice

Well… damn. I just checked the weather and radar and it’s supposed to rain tomorrow and Saturday (the Autumn Equinox). So that makes my apple and pumpkin picking plans a bust. What are some good rainy day Mabon ideas? I will still be able to cook a nice harvest feast but I still wanted to go out and CONNECT.

More photos of course, at Imagine and posting at Vibrant.

I am slowly getting myself back into doing yoga, it’s cute, I already taught my son downward facing dog, which really helps my back pain. I really would like to focus on waking up earlier to do some sun salutations (well lack of sun lately in the morning but I could throw some yellow, orange, and red glitter in the air and pretend!) and get into a daily routine.

I just took three excedrin (aka “the ‘ced”), the last in my bottle. The pressure… although normal people probably can’t tell, if there is even a HINT of change in the weather, I get insta-graine.

This evening is the rec plex new member orientation so my sister and I are going to do that and then work out a bit. Any suggestions for happy workout music or motivating podcasts to listen to?

Later…

So we went, I walked a bit more than a mile… maybe a mile and a fourth on the track, then we did all the fun strength training machines. We would have done the elliptical and treadmill except they kicked everyone off for a class. I still think I need some actual cardio though (not sure what to do about cardio). I did sneak a peek at my weight and thank the goddess I am showing a loss. I was worried because I porked out (well within my flex pts though) on Sunday and Monday (yay hormones!) but all seems to be well in that area.

I paid my car payment and phone bill, oh that hurts… so much. Next up… car insurance.

Yeah all I am going to talk about is pagany goodness, getting less fat, umm food because yay food, photography and umm migraines! I am so boring lately. Unless.. any of that stuff interests you… then… YAY.

I am just a wee bit perky.

Lastly, share with me your favorite podcasts and vodcasts!!

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09-25

2006

All Over Again

I am currently eating an large nummy honey crisp apple. How I love thee.

So Saturday just… sucked. It rained a few feet of water and hail on Friday night, rained more buckets on Saturday… so yesterday was like a belated Mabon. We went to the farmers market, did tons of laundry, took a long walk (for him, bike ride), and made homemade pizza (bbq chicken pizza for me!). I also blew up like 18 balloons for him so everywhere I went this morning, there was a balloon… sitting… watching… it’s sort of creepy.

Not sure if anyone noticed the change (points to upper left area) about my weight loss, as of yesterday I am a full 20lbs gone! I’m pretty sure we are going to the rec plex tonight. Good times.

I need suggestions for good children’s yoga dvd’s. I’ve been slowly doing yoga again and Daniel loves it. He claims my yoga mat as his. So I figure why not encourage this new found love of yoganess for him.

I am so cold, I just don’t have the money until next month maybe, to buy a jacket.

Heather, being so helpful to my “What should I blog?” question, told me and oh yes, I will quote, “BAM! You’re a robot. Now blog”. So ummm what would robots talk about? Oh ok. I got oiled today, the scent of rich oil on my metallic body… once it was done the mechanic thumped my back so hard that I heard the twang of hand on metal echo in the large garage. Why they outlawed actual robot doctor office’s I will never know… so until people get over their fear of our metal goodness, we have to hide… in garage’s.

Yeah… I need coffee.

Wow I am freezing.

I have a few huge emails I need to write tonight if at all possible.

Oh and for the hell of it, I would love it if you, yes YOU (I’m dramatic!), commented even if it’s just to say hi and even if you’re a new visitor!

More Goodness

Oh HELL YES I already ordered the sample pack, if I like them I might save and splurge on the 100pk. What a fabulous idea!

Even More Goodness

So tonight at the rec plex, I walked over a mile on the track without stopping, walked a bit more on the treadmill, and then did all the strength/weight machines and such.

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09-27

2006

Happy Birthday Lisa Marie!

Happy Birthday starshine!! I hope you have the most awesome day ever!

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09-28

2006

I am SO JEALOUS

My boss is going to the Nick Lachey concert tonight! Only 6… that’s right SIX rows back! I whipped out the podlet to play her some of his music from his new album because she didn’t know what he sang! I am all fan girly demanding she take a camera to get photos for me.

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09-29

2006

Hate

I hate that my asshole cheating no good ex called me out of no where to be all fake like he actually gives a damn about our son.

I hate that I work at a job where it’s “acceptable” for the owners to cuss, scream, and verbally abuse everyone. Where everyone lies and steals and does drugs. That I can’t even stand up for myself without utter fear of being fired, just like everyone else gets fired if they speak their minds.

I hate that my sister is so uncomfortable with my weight that unless I keep my mouth shut and does whatever she says, I am a worthless bitch. That I will never find a better job because I am so fucking fat.

I hate that I give so much of myself to everyone around me and rarely get anything in return except for being ignored.

I hate that I taught myself so much reguarding online crap for no fucking reason.

I am so completely pathetic apparently. I am stupid. I am worthless. I have no reason for being other than to piss people off and make their existance hard and miserable.

Why even fucking try.

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09-29

2006