New Bag

StarryMom posted a photo:

After 5 years I’ve finally bought a new bag, isn’t it SO me? 100% hemp too.

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Rock

StarryMom posted a photo:

A fantastic painted rock that made me think of Tucson

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Instant Karma

It’s not even Monday and already I’ve had a long and fun weekend!

Yesterday (Friday) I went over to Mary’s where we enjoyed nummy chinese food and reveled in the joy that is Robert Plant’s ummm pants. Glistening, hands on hips, tossing hair back… oh yes. OH YES. We had a ton of fun! Even if I did completely eat a ton of chinese food.

Today I took Danny and we trekked over to Stone Embrace Gifts which is a fantastic little shop in Wheaton. After getting utterly lost and having to call my sister (yet again) to guide me, I finally got to the shop (which is crazy because it took me all of 30 min to get home and it was a straight shot) and spent two hours giggling, shopping (photos below), and talking with the awesome shop owner! I felt completely comfortable and my naturally perky self unlike the other store I shall not mention but is located in Hoffman Estates… anyway. I bought some stones, a fabulous necklace that will go well with my spiral goddess earrings, and finally after five years, a new bag!! I am seriously in love with my new bag. Anyway, Daniel had a blast, really interacted well, and actually chose a citrine and sodalite! Usually he gets very… cranky in certain stores.  She also let him pick out an arrowhead and he was SO excited the whole way back, when we finally picked up my sister to go to Sweet Tomatoes for dinner. He showed her right away his new goodies, so freaking adorable. So after we all had dinner we went to Border’s where I got Danny an art kit (yay for sales!) and I got myself the book Raising Witches and magazine New Witch. Then to Meijer’s where I got a few items and some daffodils.

Right now he is watching the Power Rangers disc my sister made for him and I’m chilling with my coke zero. Tomorrow I am going to Trader Joe’s to get a few items and depending on the weather, I need to do laundry.

Citrine Hosted on Zooomr

Sodalite Hosted on Zooomr

Blue Calcite Hosted on Zooomr

Sunstone Hosted on Zooomr

This painted rock completely reminds me of Tucson.

Rock Hosted on Zooomr

Spiral Goddess Necklace Hosted on Zooomr

New Bag Hosted on Zooomr

Car Accident

I was in a car accident. My car was pretty much t-boned. I was rushed to the ER via ambulance. My driver’s side door was sealed shut they had to pry it open. DANIEL WAS NOT IN THE CAR. He was at home with my father. I was taken via ambulance flashing lights and all to the ER, lots of x-rays, morphine. My sister, her fiance, and Mary all rushed to the hospital. Matt (Danny’s father) called me. I was hysterical to say the least during all of this. I am in a lot of pain. My car is towed, I am scared, in pain, shaking, and overwhelmed.

I need a hug.

ETA

I released the car to my car insurance, I am in huge amounts of pain still. So far the total for repair is at $2100 and is expected to go even higher. I will find out the “official” total tomorrow. Thank you everyone who has commented and thought of me. I am going to lay back in bed. Heh. I cried so much yesterday that my contact lens actually flipped up into my upper eyelid and folded over on itself. I honestly haven’t processed ANY of what has happened emotionally because I fear I will just break completely down. It has been a really traumatic experience.

ETA

The official total is $3138 and the car should be done near the end of next week. I just have to come up with the $1000 deductible somehow. I am still in huge amounts of pain but I couldn’t afford to stay home from work another day.

Survive

Thank you SO much for all the energy, thoughts, and concern. I am still in pain, it hurts the most sitting unless I have a pillow behind me to give me squishy comfort. I had a physically long day although the weather was amazing. We (myself, my son, and my twin sister) went grocery shopping since obviously I am without a vehicle right now so my sister had to drive me around. I then came home, got into bed, and got very bitchy internally because my back started it’s now familiar shooting agony. My son has been nothing but helpful though, I currently have two pillows behind me and he tells me to take it easy, which is hilarious coming from a five year old.

Speaking of the wee child, he’s been looking for this specific power ranger toy he somehow misplaced and asked me today if we could ask the Goddess to help us find it and brought me our silver candle that we use to symbolize Her. Within 5 min of him just ASKING me to bring my crumpled body to our altar, I found his toy. He also has a tendency to kiss and hug all the crystals heh.

My only highlight to being laid up is before this all happened I checked out a billion library books. I have to finish filling out the accident report stuff, get that mailed in, call on Monday to check on my car, it’s still so overwhelming. Honestly, I can’t see a car coming from our left without getting very shaky. Not good. Post traumatic stress perhaps? Anyway, I am so loving CovenSpace, it’s becoming an awesome community (check out mine!).

Lastly, a large photo of me from when we were at my twin sister’s and I was propped up on her couch while she clipped coupons as my son watched his power rangers episode.

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Burning Bright

I’m still really worn out so here’s a photo entry of Daniel playing in puddles and our altar. Am I getting too boring lately? I just don’t want to bitch about my pain, migraines, stressful living situation, car accident crap all the time. Lately at night Danny has been listening to my podlet before falling asleep, his music of choice? Pagan chants my friend Crys recorded a year or two ago for the now gone pagan@osn. He especially likes “Earth Air Fire Water” and “We All Come From the Goddess”, he also listens to Queen’s “We Will Rock You” before falling asleep too lol.

Altar Hosted on Zooomr

Altar Hosted on Zooomr

Stones and Incense Hosted on Zooomr

Seashells on altar Hosted on Zooomr

Daniel at our altar Hosted on Zooomr

Danny riding his bike Hosted on Zooomr

Altar Hosted on Zooomr

What About You

First off, for all you car lovers… I had the pleasure at work yesterday to gaze upon the ford gtx-1. Two of them. Yes. Ok I admit I had no idea what the big deal was until all the guys got all sobby excited and full of girlish glee but still. Pretty damn awesome. Naturally it was the one day I did not bring my camera with me and trust me, I won’t make that mistake again as everyone bounded towards me with shiny excitement “AHHH DO YOU HAVE YOUR CAMERA DO YOU KNOW WHAT’S OUT THERE AHHHH!!”. I actually uttered the phrase, “boys and their toys”. Yeah. Shoot me now.

The above photo is currently linked to Flickr because Zooomr is being upgraded so right now I can’t upload photos and such.

I got my car today, I am still very tense driving. They washed it, painted it… it’s all shiny and clean. I just wish I wasn’t so skittish driving now.

At Meijer’s yesterday, I was thrilled to find egg shaped candles at which are sitting pretty on my altar. Just in time for Ostara.

Let’s see… on the pain front, I had to hop up on a few excedrin yesterday because not only was I getting another migraine (which seem to be more frequent since the accident ugh) but my back has been screaming at me since around 2p or so. After I came home I bitched about it, cried a bit, then cleaned the kitchen, hallway, and bedroom. My logic was that since I was already in pain, what’s a bit of cleaning that would hurt me anyway. I never said I had sane logic. I already got a bill for the ER, $1600. Glad I have full coverage auto insurance which will pay up to $5000 of my medical bills. I need to call them and see what I can do about seeing a doctor as a follow up. The migraines being more frequent concern me a bit.

Lastly, mind sharing your favorite Ostara / spring equinox / spring in general recipes?

ETA

I finally had the opportunity to do some meditation holding some rough rose quartz, listening to my “steady rain” mp3 on the podlet (to block out all the apartment noises) and read a few tarot cards (using the Goddess deck) tonight. I initially wanted to think about Isis but the Goddess Diana kept popping into my head. Which in general is odd because although I know she is a roman goddess and similar to Artemis, I don’t know much about her. So I asked her to guide me, I then did a 3 card tarot reading, past: five of pentacles, present: six of swords reversed, and future: IX Contemplation (hermit card). For me that showed that in my past, I faced a lot of financial issues, lack of money and such, the present showed me that I need to figure out what is holding me back, why I am letting myself be held back by fear in my life, and future showed me that if I do manage to get past the fear that my life will change for the better, basically, I need to figure everything out, learn from my past and stop doing the same mistakes over and over. I also did a single card, what do I need to do to change and got the six of pentacles, reversed. Which to me basically meant I need to appreciate what I have now. I constantly do “if only I had… if only I was able to… maybe if… maybe when… someday I hope…” instead of acknowledging what I do have in the here and now. Appreciating what I do have. I need to make a conscious choice to focus on the positive in my life instead of “it could be better if”.

I’m sure none of that made any sense heh. I don’t even know if I got the card’s meanings correct heh. That’s what I get for adding more to an entry at 3am!

Another Photo Post

Yet another migraine, joy. It’s starting to go away, hence my renewed ability to have the lights on without shrieking. So here are some photos I shot today before the ‘graine hit.

Lavender

Ah yes new design. It looks awful in IE but umm who uses IE anymore? I will get around to making the IE version looking better tomorrow.

I went to court, the case was completely thrown out no fines or anything so legally that was the best thing for me. I also got approval from my car ins company to see a doctor about the intense back/neck/shoulder pain and the increase in my migraines.

Here’s some recent photos of Danny jumping in puddles.

I will add a bit more to this entry later.

Like the Wind

Firstly, here’s a photo my son (he’s 5) shot of our altar. All I had to do was resize it! I wish I could say the same for all my photos lol.

Secondly, here’s a recipe for:
Mexican Corn Pancakes with Sour Cream Sauce and Black Bean Avocado Salsa.

Combine everything except for the beans and avocado in a food processor, blend until there are no large chunks, stir in the beans and avocado and pour into a bowl.

Here’s a few recent photos of the leaf budlets and such.

I’m feeling a bit lost lately, a bit disconnected. I don’t even know why really and I don’t like it one bit. It’s almost like I’ve lost the ability to ground myself.