03-28

2010

I Quit WeightWatchers & started to eat real food

I’m sure much to the dismay of my sister, I again quit Weight Watchers.

Partly due to me not losing any weight after that initial two weeks while being hardcore about sticking to my “points”, but mainly because I realized how unhealthy it’s become for me and my family!

Instead of learning portion control, I learned how to “budget” my “points”. So instead of one serving of pasta (1 cup cooked), I would figure out how to eat 3 – 4 servings for dinner simply by not eating breakfast (or having egg substitute instead of an actual egg to “save” points), or not eating lunch. We relied on artificial fat-free products to EAT more to get more bang for our buck if you will. I would feel guilty eating a banana because that’s two points! That could go for fat free bread AND jelly!

I noticed I was exhausted more than usual and yet suffered from insomnia every night. We also never felt full because instead of filling up on protein it was all these artificial ingredients that actually STARTED cravings in us. Every single night I NEEDED my 2 – 3 CUPS of light ice cream (because I would “save” my points to permit me to inhale that much!), where normally I have ice cream maybe once every few months, because I started to develop a sweet craving which I’ve never had before.

The biggest thing we noticed, was when my oldest son came to me, BEGGING to get “points”. He also would start avoiding fruit and other healthy items. He was picking up on OUR “obsession” over points.

What’s ironic is how healthy we actually do eat. Whole grain breads/pastas, mainly vegetables and fruits, some cheese and meat. Yet while doing Weight Watchers it was better to avoid most fruit, avoid healthy fat (like avocado), use fat free dairy and cheese, and extra lean meat (boneless and skinless especially!), and basically it was better to choose fat free products, even if it was full of chemicals, because again it’s lower points.

We cook 99% of our meals at home, rarely use processed foods (with the exception of Weight Watchers).

So the plan from here is eat WHOLE REAL FOOD. Limit the cheese, breads, and milk for me. As it is last night when I made a big pot of chili, I noticed we ate LESS of it (I even measured a “scoop” and it was less than 1 cup!) and actually felt full! Stuffed even! Where previously the low-fat/no-fat chili I could eat 3+ bowls and still not really feel full an hour later.

Oh yeah, it won’t hurt to eliminate that $40 bill a month either!

I’m curious to hear your thoughts on “diets”, Weight Watchers, if you do real food, traditional food, etc. I also wouldn’t mind any links/blogs/anything else shared!

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03-26

2010

Glorious Baby

Aren’t sleeping babies just so sweet?

Couldn’t help myself, just admire the cuteness of my sir nummies!

I make such awesome children!

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03-25

2010

I Fought the Insomnia, and the Insomnia Won

Nothing like fighting insomnia and losing miserably! Just… admire the duck… and the green.

Right now it’s raining lightly outside, I’m listening to my boyfriend and my oldest son, Daniel, snore. Oh wait, now baby Tristan is getting in on some light snoring action.

Sometimes I think I am going insane. My twin sister texted me today asking why I forgot to email her back, and I hadn’t forgotten it’s just my hours are so screwed up AGAIN, that I am unable to do much because every time I try, I wake one of the boys up.

I also told her that I am having anxiety issues and nightmares from the second c-section I had, but she didn’t acknowledge I even brought it up. I guess my depression/anxiety/nightmares/gods know what other issues I have stemming from that cause people to be uncomfortable or maybe not see it as real because it’s surrounding a birth of a healthy baby? I don’t know.

Anyway to totally switch gears here, if you’re a SAHM (stay at home mom), what the hell do you do all day? I keep reading/seeing/hearing about how there are never enough hours in a day but I don’t have that issue. I feel so lazy and unproductive actually. I rarely have to do much but play with the boys, breastfeed the baby, and uhh that’s about it. Literally. Keith does all the diaper changes (I would say about 98% of the time), and diaper laundry. He and I go back and forth on the regular laundry. We also switch off on cleaning the kitchen.

I felt accomplished last night because not only did I make dinner (which granted I do most nights because I enjoy it), but I made these little apple pie wontons for dessert AND ran a load of dishes.

So really, PLEASE break it down for me stay at home moms, WHAT DO YOU DO ALL DAY? I need a purpose! A plan!

Hmm what else, oh Weight Watchers is going ok. I’ve lost almost 20lbs now, which granted in the whole scheme of things is barely anything, I still have 40lbs to lose to get to pre-pregnancy size (how I gained like NOTHING during the pregnancy due to the hyperemesis yet gained almost 60lbs AFTER the birth, I will never understand), and after THAT another 100lbs probably. Nothing like being raised to eat my feelings!

I’m not fat. I’m “plus-sized”. Or husky. I think I like husky. Sounds more sturdy.

Back to the insomnia thing, it’s seriously screwing with my mind. I can’t focus on anything, it always seems dark because I go to bed when it’s dark and wake up when it’s dark. Plus you know, the whole guilt factor that I’m not up at the crack of dawn baking fat free muffins for the family while doing 3 loads of laundry AND mopping the floor singing happy shiny songs.

Oh well, stare at another pretty photograph and tell me I’m awesome because really, that DOES help actually! Makes me feel like I’m not completely alone in my jacked up way of thinking!

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