Simply Everything

Well, lately no one seems to be reading so I figure write a really long entry about everything and make it restricted.

I have gotten 4 new hostees the last week or so. Considering even now most of them are not pariticpating on Wisdom yet the hostees blog has picked up. I plan on emailing them all about the fact that I require frequency on Wisdom.

I made sabbat crescent cakes and applesauce loaf today. Matt loves them both. I was worried, always worried, that he would think I was insane for making something that would be an offering to the Goddess and God. Can’t wait for his look when I finally have a chance to create my altar in the 3^rd room. I am waiting until I get some nice fabric for my altar cloth.

Wednesday we go to visit my family.
I wonder how many comments I will get on nursing chubs who will be 6 months old on the 9^th. We are going to try solids around 7 months or so. Maybe at 8 months not sure yet. I am paranoid about people touching him, I wonder if I should bring like wetwipes so I know people at the family reunion have clean hands before poking him?

OneStarryNight just does not seem to be doing well in general. I rarely get comments or any sign of visitors. My newest hostee told me she was shocked I never got a fansign. I assume fansigns are a good thing.

We are so broke, Ali promised to send money which was to help cover rent and for us to come up, now she says she will just have us put it in the bank when we are in Illinois. It’s like well then how are we to come up?

I am even more lonely these days. From the standpoint of being a mother with no other mother who shares my parenting views. I am pro-breastfeeding anti-anything artificial, no bottles no pacifiers etc. A friend of mine who got preggers during my 3^rd trimester or so. She was even more gung-ho than I was. Cloth diapers, no circ if it was a boy (it’s a girl), natural childbirth, etc. Well she had her baby, when she talked to me she could not stop raving about the epidural, she showed me pictures and the day old baby had a pacifier in her mouth, and then she commented how the second time she tried breastfeeding, her daughter did not latch on well. When I asked about the cloth diapers which Matt and I still want to do if we had a washer/dryer, she told me how she was not using cloth and how much easier disposable were. It just makes me feel bad because I thought well at least I will have ONE person who will understand ONE person that won’t get all pissy with me.

Anyways, Matt just got off the phone with the bank. We are hoping everything works out with the rent being paid heh.

Well that is it for now. If I think of anything else I will update and slap *Update* on the title so everyone knows. Remember, you took the time to email for access, you have the time to comment.

Updates
In reply to current comments

To Mary:
Ali and Jess have ALL sorts of things planned! She got me a HAND PAINTED LENNON CLOTH!! Yeah, you know my reaction heheh. I also can not wait to finally meet you! By the way I can’t remember if I set you the pics of chub in the recliner? E-mail me if you didn’t get them.

To Morgan:
We are waiting until he WANTS to eat instead of giving him solids just because it is the norm. We know physically he is ready because we waited until he got teeth, he has 2 now, which means his stomach is producing the proper digestive acids now. We plan on starting him on perhaps organic bananas or sweet potatoes. He will only have organic and we plan on doing our own baby food, just seems better than way. We know what is going in him instead of the jars which seem to have additives.  Breastfed babies do not need any extra juice, water, etc. Breastmilk is the perfect combo of water, proteins, fats, carbohydrates, etc. When he is over a year old and can hold and use a sippy cup, then he will get watered down organic juices. Hehe I told Matt today I will express some of my milk then and freeze it and combine it with some fruit for a breastmilk smoothie for the baby since all I seem to do these days is make Matt fruit smoothies. As for a ped, well, the simple answer is, we do not have one. We used to have one but she kept pushing us to use formula, made the comment that I was a “hard-core” breastfeeder, and oh yeah, that I was the whitest person she has ever known. Not what I wanted to hear. She did not treat chubs jaundice until it was almost in the danger zone which then caused many trips to the hospital for blood tests, a bili blanket, etc. We have gone to other peds but none will take state insurance.

Ahhh I went off on a tangent there!!
On the plus side of OSN things, Wisdom is BOOMING tonight!!! Where are all these people coming from!?

Just Blah

Lately, although I will be online, I rarely blog. Seems like all of my readers have disappeared besides my friends obviously.

I got my period yesterday….first period since having chubs. It sucks.

Lately I have been getting more and more deeper in to my faith and religion. I don’t know why, maybe because I want to raise Daniel in a household that believes? Matt has said numerous times that he has no problem with me raising chubs as pagan. Even got me a book on pagan parenting.

I updated Pagan @ OSN and Pagan Voice seems to be doing well.

I am still trying to look for hostees. My current ones, after many emails from me, have bursts of activity but for the most part nothing. My newest one has blogged like 3 times in the past few weeks and when I try to IM her, she rarely responds or does the “Have to go bye!” so I lowered my age requirement to 16, perhaps the younger folks will be more happy to be hosted.

I am excited, waiting for Sage, Crystal‘s e-zine to get up and running.

I just…..want to cry sometimes….I am very very lonely. I don’t have anyone really to talk for any period of time about children, because I have such different views than most people, or paganism because not many people my age take it seriously. I just….need some friends…it’s hard not even being 21 yrs of age and having almost nothing in common with anyone.

We go to visit my family in Illinois on the 10^th…I wonder how that will go? I know my sister does not agree on some of my parenting methods and my dad has made the comment of “when will he start using a bottle for water and juice” but I hope that they are understanding of my parenting skills. Ali has promised me some pagan books of hers she no longer wants and also promised to take me to the pagan shop she visits occasionaly which I am excited about because according to her it just has so much more than the little shop I go to out here.

The car is acting up. It is overheating and we can not figure out why. So we are hoping to get an appointment in to get it looked at before the trip.

I have been up since 9am yesterday morning. I am having very bad sleep issues. I am exhausted, but I only take 1 – 2 hour naps with chubs through out the day. I just feel guilty because I have these goals, like cleaning this room, the main bedroom, etc and I never get anything done. The weather does not help any. The humidity is what gets me. It makes my head hurt.

My 21^st birthday is coming up in October, I wonder what changes will come then? Chubs will be 9 months old. Supposedly Ali and Jessica will be coming up to celebrate…maybe I can get them drunk since I will not drink obviously. I think it would be funny heh. I have a weird sense of humor sometimes.

Well, I suppose that is it for now. I may add more later if anything else pops into mind.

Remember, you can always comment on this entry, in fact, I expect it since you made the effort to get access. Aren’t I sweet heh.

*Update*
Well after being gone 4 hours. Matt came home. Informing me we are $300 short of rent. His family, which he does their grocery shopping, misc house work stuff, mows lawn, etc. Refused to give him any more. They are not giving him ANYTHING next month. I am so upset. I can not ask my family for any more money. I just got money from my dad to go towards bill and all I could do was pay part on the phone, cable, and electric bills. I had to buy chubs clothes, diapers, washcloths, and food in general. Plus weekly $40 for the fridge and chair. I am just. Lost. Ali called me from Summerfest and I know I will talk to her later or at the least she will want to this this entry. How can I tell her, guess what we might not be able to come up because we have to find some sort of means to pay just THIS month’s rent not to mention next month’s. I wish I could earn money online but I have not found any options that would pay min wage. I just do not know what to do.

Babbling

I have been attempting a new yet similar layout for the blog, I have sent countless shots to my panel of Amber, Ali, Jessica, and Morgan. It’s sickening heh.

Daniel is all cute n cuddly n sleeping on Matt. I can not believe he is almost 3 months old!

I got the nifty perl module installed so I can make nifty MT thumbnails using MT 2.0. Everyone MUST download and use and love MovableType!

Matt says I am indeed loosing weight, I am happy because I can not stand carrying all this baby weight around, but hey breastfeeding ALSO gives the benifit of using like 500 calories a day just doing something as simple as feeding my son! Woohoo! Also it seems my breasts are NOT noticing the difference, yes, you CAN become a size F in a matter of a few hours after having a child. Suprise surprise huh.

Ugh, as I type this, I hear MORE slamming of doors, kicking of walls, and yelling all over this damn-ed evil apartment building, Matt is going to call the landlord yet AGAIN about this. HELLO, if in OUR lease there is about a million “quiet” rules shouldn’t EVERYONE follow them besides us? We have gotten quite a few comments from people in the building that they thought our apartment was empty because it is so quiet. Just because we are in our twenties does not mean we need to be rowdy. (I just know Ali is cracking up as she reads this because I said “rowdy”)

Well, I suppose one of these days I will do another main layout for OSN, but I still really like the current one, and I want more content somehow, before I work on a new layout, any content suggestions? Well I suppose that is it for now, remeber to stop by the forums, and join the wonderful community if you have not already!

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