Breastfeeding

Okey updating hehe. Breastfeeding is going wonderfully, no problems at all, well maybe cept the fact I ONLY seem to leak ONLY in PUBLIC, rarely here at home hahahahaha. Daniel is doing great, he is one perky baby, smiling all the time, and for Morgan, Daniel was rolling over in the hospital, actually he was once he came out of pleasant wombness, I wonder if he was doing it more so because he had a tad more freedom being breech? Anyways, I am slowly getting used to Matt working again, it is just hard on me emotionally and mentally because well I feel so isolated. I mean, I have gotten NO phone calls, E-mails, snail mail, etc from friends and/or family. I am tired of ALWAYS having to initiate contact with everyone. Is it like that for all new mothers? Being ignored by most everyone??

A lot of people have asked me for pictures of Daniel, I did put a couple up on a special URL, but I am VERY freaked of just having pictures on the web of him, especially since being from AOL, I know what little teeny bopper brats do with baby pictures. No joke. Teen girls actually FAKE being pregnant, like teen pregnancy is “cool” and will also claim to be teen mothers and use other peoples photos and claim them as their own. So, hence my paranoia.

I want to do a new layout for OSN, for Valentine’s Day but I am not sure when I will have the time. I don’t really believe in having Daniel in some place other than my or Matt’s arms. A crib was a TOTAL waste of money and we use the bassinet as our “changing table”! Right now Matt is holding him, it is also Matt’s day *techinally night but whatever* off so yay for me!

Hmm I know this post is super boring and pretty much bitching but well at least I posted!!

I shall now plug all those who have new layouts that I have noticed!

Sarah, CG, Tess, and Morgan.

Since I haven’t really checked out any other sites, I am not sure if anyone has a new layout. Well give them (and me!) some love! I hope to babble more later!

Babble

Well I have a chance to come online, I have lots of chances but usually hate to actually MOVE my poor body hahahaa. Hmmm I am currently leaking…anyways Daniel is doing really well, he still keeps trying to roll over, he can only roll onto his side though, and he “talks” alot, and smiles a TON! He also has the hiccups a lot, it’s kinda cute.

Matt had his first night back at work last night, man it was hard being alone with the baby for that long, especially since I am still in a lot of pain from the c-section. Not to mention I now have this like inner tube around my middle, very fustrating for me indeed.

I know this is a short entry but I am too tired to think of much to babble about heh. Give me loveeeeeeee!

Babble

Today we go again to check his bili levels for jaundice. I HOPE they have gone down!! breastfeeding is still wonderful, the first couple minutes it is painful for that inital latch on but after that its smooth sailing all the way. I WANT a BOPPY!!! I THINK my milk has come in but I can’t tell!!! I am leaking like crazy but I never “see” myself leaking, I just see the moistness all over, although I do sometimes see some milky looking stuff flowing out sooooo did it come in? I always thought it was supposed to be dramatic and painful!

My Spinal site is all itchy cause its scabbing over, and I can’t scratch it and I want to sooooooo darn bad.

I wonder how to go about getting a nursing bra when I do not want to go out in public and I do not want to bring the baby out more than we actually HAVE to. Also we noticed we should have bought way more newborn sized clothing heh, we have like 2 outfits in newborn and 3 – 6 stuff is just WAY too big.

Tonight is Matt’s first night back at work and my first night alone with the baby. I am terrified because I still need so much help getting out of the bed, especially if I had been laying down for a while. Matt plans to go to one of those rent to own places and get a recliner so I can sleep in that which I hope we can get today. He did buy me a glider yesterday and put it together while Daniel and I slept and I LOVE IT!!! I didn’t think I would but I do!! It is SO wonderful and soothing to me and Daniel.

Well I think that is it for now, I am SOOO happy about all the wonderful comments I have recieved and I plan on emailing or perhaps making a page with some photos of Daniel on it and sharing that URL to certain people. Perhaps the page would be more simple?

Matt is going real quickly to the post office to pick up the box of baby stuff my mom had sent last week, it had come Friday but obviously we couldn’t get it so it is there waiting for us to pick it up. Plus that will warm up the car and then we will go get Daniel’s bili levels checked.

I know I am babbling, its just wow. I honestly did not think I would have this maternal thing kick in so fast or kick in at all. I mean I CRIED when he was born, I CRY when he is upset, I seriously got all hysterical yesterday when he had his bili level checked. So today Matt and I agreed I shouldn’t come into the room this time around heh. I can’t believe he is almost a week old. We can not imagine our life without him. Matt is such a wonderful father and fiance. He helps me out SO much. He even plans on coming home during his 30 min break to check up on us! Well NAK so babble on later!!