Newness

Yep baby blog layout, kinda like the older one but hey tell me whatcha think!! Where is that darn roadrunner man! I WANT MY HIGH SPEED ACCESS! *throws self, wait no, makes Matt throw HIMSELF to the floor to have tantrum FOR me!*

Perky

Thank you everyone for the lovely comments. The cable dude is supposed to come this morning!

Well, my day yesterday…Matt got paid so we went to the baby resale store. THE ONLY place I allowed myself, besides Arbys, to walk from the car into store and back to car etc. So we got SOOOOO much clothes for only $30! Seriously I should take some pictures because half of this stuff is awesome.

So anyways, all yesterday morning I was loosing MORE chunks of my mucous plug, but not more than usual, so we go to Arby’s, I have to pee heh so you know, wiping, and the entire toliet paper was just, thats right folks, mucous plug niceness….so I tell Matt, we tell the baby stay in there until wednesday heh…so we go do laundry,you know, wash all the new baby stuff, our two comforters, some towels sheets, etc. Before we leave, during the drying of the clothes, I once again, have to pee, so I go and once again a EXTREMELY large amount of my mucous plug. So after THAT, I start getting a really bad backache, and pretty often coming cramps, we make the wild assumption, “hey perhaps THESE are contractions!” which any other time would have thrilled us but well with baby situation,it scared us. So we come home, Matt makes the bed ALL BY HIMSELF! Helps me into bed, cramps and backache still coming for about 2 – 3 hours, I hurt, I really did hurt. Eventaully everything calmed down body wise, I have a light backache still but not the cramps. It did throw us for a scare though since we just aren’t READY not to mention we don’t want me to have an emergency c-section. It’s scary enough to have a c-section at all. So that was my lovely day heh.

I wonder how many people noticed me not blogging? Or being online? ahhaa if you noticed my abscense tell me! I wanna feel the LOVE! Okey I should go back to bed, Matt set the alarm for 730am cause they are supposed to come from like 8-10am. Okey so give the love and I shall babble more later!

Upset

I am VERY upset. I just got off of the phone with Ali. Some of you that I have talked to know, I do NOT want ANYONE here to visit while I am in the hospital, which will be from Wednesday to if LUCKY out by Friday. Anyways I made this VERY clear to both her and my mother. My mother seems fine with that, she told me to just let her know seven days in advance to whenever I want her to come. Anyways, so last night after many phone calls to track ali down, to leaving her emails, she calls me, I tell her about what is going on with the baby, and she goes “Oh I will visit from Wednesday until Saturday then” I told her, No, do not come up while I am in the hospital. I will need any help from her once I am OUT of the hospital, although not sure what help she could provide since obviously she is no where near having kids. Anyways, she told me to call her after seven pm her time at work. So I called. She tells me “I got until Saturday” I start getting irritated and upset once I heard that. I start telling her that is pointless, to not do that but to stay and work and perhaps try to get the next week off instead. She says “No that is when I am coming up” So I tell her she can not FORCE her way here to see the baby or me, she tells me “yes I can,I am coming up” so I asked her where she will stay “Oh I will find a way” then tries to get me off of the phone. I mean, come on, am I in the wrong about feeling this way?? I have ENOUGH issues to deal with right now including a nice hefty fear of a major operation n all! What to do?? Everytime I seem to FINALLY get semi perky I somehow make the mistake of talking to family members who LOVE to know all the details of my pregnancy, and somehow blab PERSONAL details to EVERYONE, I’m upset that people I don’t even KNOW, have details that I only told my family about. I mean if I wanted EVERYONE to know EVERYTHING, I blog about it. I just, do not know what to do. I just want to cry, but crying just makes me throw up, literally. I just do not know what to do.