First, I fell off the planet without warning or explanation 5 years ago. Sorry for that, but it was a path I had to take, and it is pertinent here.

I left my pursuit of spirituality for 5 years.. some of it was due to events in my life, but in the end I just did not have the calling, movement, or what ever you wish to call it. Connection to Brigid, Gaia, and the spiritual nature of the cosmos was simply missing for me, much as you have found for yourself.

I believe we all have a path to choose, and sometimes that path leads us away for spiritual matters. You will find yourself on a spiritual path in the future if it is right for you, but then again you may not.

Your path is yours, and following your true calling is what is important. All rivers lead to the same ocean.

So, now I am going to go dig up that acorn squash recipe you posted recently and give it a try!

Your friend,

Pacific Druid
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@Natasha you bring up some amazing points! In the past I felt VERY connected but the past two years that’s completely disappeared and I do feel like my beliefs “failed” somehow especially with the birth of my second son.

@FernWise I do feel the best just BEING outdoors, the fresh air just makes me feel so much better. As it is I usually have a window open all year long (even right now when it’s 20 odd degrees!) which drives everyone nuts but helps my mental state lol.

Enjoy sunrises, sunsets, flowers, wind, rain, the soft snores of your children. See the beauty in them all, and hold it fiercely.

If you hear the soft voice of ANY Divinity, from any religion, great. If not, you’re still surrounded by beauty.

I think you’ve got to take a bath. That’s my euphemism for silencing everything to see what you really want/need/think/etc. So, take a bath. Here’s what I would focus on:

Why are you feeling this disconnect? Were you ever really connected to the Goddess, or in the wake of your trauma did you need something and paganism is what was there?

Is it a sense of spiritual community you’re looking for? Or is it a parenting community? Or do you simply need any type of community? If so, have you looked at communities dealing with other areas of your life? For me, it’s my west coast swing community that I draw the most strength from.

I have a hard time with religion. I’m Catholic, but rarely go to Mass. I don’t trust organized religion in most cases. I don’t like how it’s used these days. For me, religion is a basic code of ethics. It’s also something to give us a sense of purpose. But based on the number of different Christian sects/denominations, there’s much to left to interpretation. If none of them work for you, I agree with the earlier posters — look at the UU church. Have you looked at Buddhism?
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What I mean is, I think it’s healthy to doubt and evaluate religious beliefs so you don’t believe for the sake of believing.

I hear you on missing the sense of community, though. Really few churches relegate people just for being “new.” You might look up some of the churches around you to see their core beliefs and “try em on.” I’m glad I did that a few times in college to get a feel for the unfamiliarity of somewhere new. I’ve never felt foreign, even if I didn’t like some practices or others. It’s like attending a class to find your major.

Then again, I think any religion can have something for everyone. I’m a Universalist that way.

@Maree EXACTLY. I feel like I NEED to feel something again. I have so much anger, bitterness, betrayal for so long that I don’t know how to process/heal.

@Keeshia I tried so many times over the years to reach out on WitchVox and haven’t gotten a sane person yet!

It has been a very, very long time since I’ve considered myself a practitioner of any formal religion, but I’ve always kept to paganism. As I’ve gotten older though I’ve drifted away from needing that presence in my life and focused more inward. Today it’s almost as if logic is my religion. Positive thinking, putting out that healing and helpful energy, is what I’m trying to focus on, with the still firm belief that what I give is what I get from the universe.

I do second the idea of reaching out via WitchVox. I haven’t visited the site in years but I think if you could find even one good connection with someone you might see a turn for the better in the spiritual department :)
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On the bright side, I think spirituality is a journey so it’s okay if you, me, all of us are searching.