Hello! THis is my comment, you paid nothing for it, so take it for what it’s worth! :)

Everyone needs a mother, I mean besides a bio-mother. The “mother” you give yourself and the grandmother you give your children, does not have to be your bio-mother. For whatever reason, and it doesn’t have to be your fault, your bio mother doesn’t seem capable of being yur mother. My first piece of advice is for you to change your e-mail, or block her e-mail from your account. There is NO reason for you to be tortured by her e-mails. For physical mail, I would ask your husband to check all mail that comes into the house, and let him censor out any mail that comes from her. If it is anice birhtday card for any member of your family, then he should let it through, but I mean only after he reads it and is sure there isn’t any mean message on the inside. Otherwise, any mean letters from your mom, should be filed in the garbage and you should never even know that they came. Any important news about your mother should be related by your sister, and she shouldn’t tell you ANY of the mean things that your mom says about you, or blames you for.

Now for the needing a mother, is Keith’s mother nice to you? She could be a substitute mom for you. So could an older friend that yu meet in real life, or over the net. What do we need mothers for? As a sounding board, for advice, for comfort. Is there an older woman that does this for you already? She could be your substitute mom.

YOu don’t deserve to be abused by anyone, family or “friend or lover.”

Stay strong, you are worth it!