I am so sorry to hear this. My heart breaks for you.

My biological mother abandoned me when I was 18 months old and never looked back. She could have easily reached out to me if she wanted to. My paternal grandparents who raised me still live in the same house (my grandfather does anyway).

My “mom” (paternal grandmother) who raised me for some odd reason never got attached to my son. She was OK with our daughter who is older but the day she found out I was pregnant again she was never happy. When he was born and up until he was a toddler she referred to him as “the little boy” and never by name. She NEVER had a relationship with him and we’ll never know why. Mean while the sun rised and set on my sister’s two children. I broke my heart and I stopped talking to my mom for well over a year because of it.

My mom (paternal grandmother) passed away nearly 7 years ago and I miss her. I wish we could have left things different and said the words left unspoken.