My Head

What is wrong with me? Why do I sabotoge myself? I need to build up a daily menu per week, tonight we stopped at Arby’s and I made the wrong… choice if you will and I just spent the last 15 min in the bathroom dry heaving. Good times. Really. My body isn’t used to that stuff anymore!

I think part of it is because of the shit going on with Shannon and instead of focusing on myself I just revert back to old comfort food behaviors which obviously isn’t good.

Plus my food scale totally died on me and keeps giving me an ERR message which the website told me meant it was overloaded but that’s not possible when nothing is ON the scale. So I can’t figure out how much meat I’m eating and such. I freaking loved that scale. LOVE. I know. Issues. So woe is me. WOE!

I also think I need to invest into a range of DVD’s for working out so I don’t get bored so easily. I am just so… fed up with being so overweight. I can’t stand the fact that I regained all of the weight I had lost!