I fucking HATE feeling like this. So lost, so confused. I can’t trust him, but I think I love him. How’s that for a bitch smack from the universe. I want him… and then I just want it all to go away. I can’t take it right now. I can’t handle JUST phone calls and JUST emails and JUST ims.
I need something REAL. I need to be loved, feel loved, I just need it so bad. I am so fucked up. Right now, I just really want to be held, and I seriously would like to cry. While being held. Yes. That sounds very nice indeed. Anyone up for it?
Like I said earlier, sometimes it’s like that quote, “the only one to stop me from crying is the one making me cry” I must really like all of this drama, all of this heartache, to keep wishing things were different, and that things would change.
Could I swear anymore the past few days?