Anyone want to toss money my way for a treadmill? Heh, didn’t think so, although by all means if you want to give me one I won’t say no hhaha
I just have no idea what to do aside from these asinine workout videos. It’s hard to find the time well at least more than 15 min, of “free” time to pop in a video and do it for 40 minutes.
I just feel like I make this effort for no reason. I can’t tell if I am making any sort of progress, I don’t own a scale, haven’t been on a scale since my 6-week postpartum visit and I don’t even remember how much I weighed then.
I just am starting to really get down on myself for being so heavy. My family is not supportive of me losing weight. I rarely if ever leave the apartment because I don’t know the area, plus where am I supposed to go? Carrying a 25lb child none the less.
I dislike being so negative about every little aspect in my life. I just am feeling overwhelming fustrated at my weight. I try to drink water but damn is it hard, it is just so… watery and all I can think about, when I drink water, is all the times I tossed it back up during my pregnancy, which doesn’t help much haha.
Just ugh, slap me upside my head and smack some goodness and light into me hahaha