While I can’t relate to the abuse (so sorry you had to go through that; your mother said some awful things to you), I have battled with depression for much of my life. Writing it all out help a lot. It gets it outside of your brain, where you can see it and read it with your own two eyes. It can be a real wake up call. It can make you see that you need to make a change or that, like you said, you are worth it. It seems you have an amazing significant other and two wonderful boys. I’m so glad they make you happy.

I think as humans, we all have those moments where we ask, “Who am I? How did I get here?” (I know I have.) It’s all a part of the human experience. It will make you stronger–it already has. And what I love about blogging is the connection. So many others have gone through struggles and we can all relate and connect to that on some level.