Yeah, I Have Issues

Beware, most of this is not going to make sense.

Last night, my dreams were nightmares. Fantastic.

It made me realise though that I am terrified of mortality. I mean panic attack terrified. I can hardly ride in a moving vehicle anymore without being fearful that today is the day something bad will happen.

Maybe it stems from being isolated so much?

So back to the dream, it was actually three seperate dreams, the first one had this… older woman? Who was in an attic and I knew she was evil, she terrified me, and tried to kill her, at first with a shotgun but the bullet barely went 3 inches before falling to the ground. Then I somehow had a handgun… not sure if I killed here though, I can’t remember.

The second dream was so disturbing I can’t talk about it. I cried all hysterically when I woke up from it.

The third dream I don’t remember too much exactly… but I remember that my sister, my father, and myself were sitting at somesort of dark outside cafe? Then a group of people turned the corner and I thought… I know those people… one called my name, my sister had this look of surprise then suddenly she wasn’t MY sister anymore. Then I was at a beach of some sort. I had this sweater and was swimming. The water started to evaporate leaving just sand and that stuck out so clearly, the sand. It started to have a massive storm.

So I looked up the sand symbol and this is what I found.

Sand
To see sand in your dream, signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. Consider also the familiar phrase, “the sands of time” in which it may be suggesting that you are wasting your time or letting time pass you by.

To see wet sand in your dream, indicates that you are lacking a sense of balance in your life.