Long Way to Happy
I am so worn out this week. I have had two migraines so far and it’s only Tuesday. Damn high pressure weather.
I am getting utterly creeped out to come home and see on the caller id that my son’s father has been calling in the middle of the day and not leaving any sort of message. I don’t know if he expects my child to answer the phone (he won’t, he thinks everyone that calls is my sister, me, or a telemarketer) or what. Plus he has another wee myspace that people keep contacting me about. So ugh on that situation.
I have a few web related projects in the works for a few friends of mine, I will focus on that at home this week. I also need to suck it up and clean my damn bedroom. Toys and junk all over the place, driving me insane. I also need to do laundry but I keep losing the laundry cards heh. Not good.
I am still in this awful depression for the most part. I can’t seem to relax any. I think being so lonely has a lot to do with it. I have a car and don’t go anywhere. I still have no friends to hang out with. Who wants to be my friend? Woe.
I’ve been reading some of my old entries… jesus. It’s hard to believe that I actually used to be emotionally/mentally ok… for the most part anyway. I am somewhat frightened that “perky” and “frisky” were part of my daily… hell even hourly… vocabulary. Also, I was known as “Sprite” almost everywhere. It’s also so odd how you can have such a tight friendship one moment and have it be gone the next. I remember talking for hours with some people and then suddenly… wake up and realise you haven’t spoken in 6 months. Ok yeah not making any sense here.
Ugh I can not stand it when the guys reschedule appointments, don’t tell me (or anyone else) and then I have to deal with very irate customers (somewhat understandably so) wondering where the hell the guy is. Then, of course, they take it out on me. Oh wait, not only did this person go off, but now they cancelled their appointment. Just fantastic. Ugh.
Well, since I can’t think of anything else, go and visit Visionary Muse.
What the hell? Someone is trying to access my livejournal, I just got a few “lost password” emails, which turned out to be valid… so again… what the hell?
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