I am not an organized person. I crave a schedule and routine, yet fail to implement one.
Every single night is a struggle to figure out what to make for dinner, even after trying for MONTHS to attempt to menu plan. The only thing I do “right” when it comes to dinner is that we ALL sit at the table, no television, and have a family meal that I cook from scratch.
I am fantastic at coming up with wonderful ideas. I just seem to be unable to implement them. I can get obsessive reading homemaker and home blogs. I always think if I just had a bigger house like “normal” people. You know the kind, two stories, all wood floors, a huge kitchen, all filled to the brim with bright natural light… That if I had that I would be little miss homemaker extraordinaire. Starting with a fresh empty beautiful slate.
I get overwhelmed really easy when it comes to cleaning as well because even though I oddly enough enjoy the task itself, I tend to get very perfectionist about it. What’s the point of just picking up the floor when it needs to be scrubbed, the walls need to be painted, we can’t even afford paint, so why bother cleaning at all? It’s very fatalistic and I know that.
It’s hard too, meshing my “ideals” with Keith’s. I tend to lean towards wanting things more minimalistic because I figure, if I don’t have much, it will be easier to keep tidy. However he likes his stuff! I think my issue does come from never really having my own room (not even in the womb!), never having my OWN place from the start, (I always move in to someone else’s home, Keith’s father built this house), and I have a certain idea of how I want things to look.
So what advice do you have to offer someone in my situation? How can I get control over my life, my home, when I’ve tried in the past, and failed?